Stalker

Recently i do aware that so many stalkers that always come to disturb me...
but why? it is because i am instructor?i am also a human being...
did you know your act will bring me headache and problem?
and OFCOURSE,that's annoying!
so please,stop disturbing me!

p/s : might offended,but that's fact!

贪新鲜

整个月都没有update我的blog了。
果然证明我有够贪新鲜的。。。
一个月一次，又没有人看，看来关掉算了。。。
像垃圾一样的blog。。。

a better choice?

recently just realized that i already did something wrong that until can't return to the point of begin...

talked to some of my best friends,it's seem like they cant help me to slove my preblem and keep asking me not to think too much...

been thinking for more than one month,sometimes just think maybe keep being wrong might be a better choice for myself...

thats make me headache alot...
what to do?

A sence of satire

i know,i'm in love now...
but what can i do?
people don't like me...
sometimes wondering,what the use i have so many pursuers?
i am not interested with them at all...
the person that i love have no feeling with me...
so why do i need so many pursuers?
it's useless...
what a surpreme irony to my life...

I need a clear direction.

what am i doing now...?
i know i shouldn't fall in love with someone...
but,i really cant control my feeling...
and i know,i am not allowed to in love with my target...
so why do i keep being so stubborn?
it is so suffering...
please tell me what to do?

is this my fault...?

Is been a long time never update my blog here...just feel like nothing to do and just wanna write something to share but i know,no one is reading...

Recently,i found that i in love with someone.after let some of my friends know who is my target,no one agree and encourage to date my target.and i know,i fall in love with someone i shouldn't with it...

it is being in love with someone is so suffering?i never been in love like this before,so suufering until i can feel my heart is pain.i missed my target everyday,almost every hours...anytime and anywhere.

i know is sickening,but i really cant control myself to thinking about my target.
what to do?gosh that's make me feel so annoyed...

出殡

上个星期六我的舅母因车祸而过身，真的有一点接受不到。看到我舅母的棺材在墓穴里面，想哭又哭不出来。。。看见从小就陪我长大的舅母躺在墓穴里，真得很不像那样就看到那样就与世隔离。如果可以，我真得很希望这只是噩梦一场，睡醒来就算了。。。

我做错了

一个星期前，我做了一件在我人生中不应该做的事。现在回想起来，我真得很后悔。现在每一次看到他，又怕又懊悔，我真的很不想看到他，因为每一次我看到他我真的不知道要如何面对他。现在我真的天天活在恐惧中。我很怕，要怎么办好？

这是什么样的人啊？！

最近在gym里和某个人反脸，我也不像这样做，可是他的确很过分。。。还在gym里唱衰我的名誉，这种人我有是否要和他计较呢？

话说在4个月前，我在gym里被人性骚扰，当让我会把这一件事情告诉我的朋友叫他们防范，其中一个是"S"。但我没想到"S"把我的事情唱通街，让每一个人都知道这一件事。我能不火滚吗？而且在gym里"S"每一次见到我要提一次，讲一次，笑一次才开心，才甘愿闭嘴。更令人讨厌的是，当我不想理他时，他大大声问我是不是想念那个在厕所里骚扰我的那个人，有这么过分的人吗？

某日，我决定不要和"S"说话时，恶梦开始了。。。几天之后，"S"在Facebook不停的唱衰我.他写我幼稚，假惺惺，我喜欢给男人搞，什么难看的字眼都写得出来(如果你是同性恋者我必须在此说明我没有鄙视成分)这严重影响了我的名誉，直到某间健身中心叫我不要乱乱和member胡搞。你说我能不生气吗？

更离谱的是，他不但不知已经得罪我，而且在Facebook里写这是上天叫他这样做，说我死了之后要放在博物馆里让大家看什么是gay，本世纪最大的笑话。。。可是，我想让他知道，我并不介意让他知道我被人骚扰的事，但我很介意他把我的事唱通街，放在网上让大家笑。他说他很成熟，我很幼稚，但你有没有想过你的一举一动让我很讨厌你？你有没有想过你的谣言会让我的名誉扫地？我在这里写并不是要发泄，而是想要让你知道一个成熟的人不会乱说话，得罪人。如果你真的很成熟的话，你不会拿我们的丑事来“分享”给你的朋友。你成熟的话，你不应该在网上说你爸爸是白痴，要F**K他。

这种人，真的不知道要如何应付他？

第一次

看见朋友们一个一个开始的写blog,无无聊聊又开了一个属于自己的blog。。。

早就想开个属于自己的blog但又很懒。。。但想想下又可以发泄一下自己的心情。还是开了算了。第一个的开始，希望你们可以支持我。。。