Bad trip

Today is your birthday but i'm away for holiday.

It should be a happy trip but it suddenly reminds me that u will going back to somewhere and I feel so scare that I missing you...

Just can't wait to go back KL now and see you...

Altought I know is a short distance but why the feeling is so strong?

Something that you will never know

Always pretend alright in front of you,but you will never know how i feel when you are not with me... :(

You will never how pain is my heart when i blessing you and him happy always.

You will never know how upset i am when you refused to accept my friend request that time.

You will never know how lonely i am when i workout alone in the gym.

You will never know how sad i am when everytime i see your relationship status changed to married.

You will never know how bad is the feeling when you told me u are so glad to know and meet him.

You will never know how suffer i am for expecting you come to the gym but you didn't show up.

You will never know how dissapointed i am when everytime you rejected me to have tea time with you.

You will never know how empty i am when i missing you in the silence night.

You will never know how wish i can chat with you when i see you online on facebook/MSN but i scared to annoy you.

You will never know jealous i am when i think of you and him together.

You will never know how hurt i am when the time i wanted to express my feeling and explain to you and you left me in the same time.

You will never know how i worried about you when you told me you will leaving here.

You will never know i cried for you sometimes.

You will never know i having bad insomnia evernight because of thinking you too much.

You will never know the only way for me to temporaily forgeting you is smoking and masturbating.

You will never know my heart is broken and become pieces now because of you.

You said me crazy about someone last time,but when i'm crazy about you but unfortunately you never knew that.

I never want to let you know all these feeling because i don't want u feel sad,guilty and blame yourself.why?cause i dont wanna worry about me...

Maybe what you told me was correct,i shouldn't disturb someone in a relationship and i shouldn't told you i have been loving you.

I hate myself too late realized of loving you.

Don't leave me alone in the dark side...